Yes I am converting

Am I converting – part 3

They say I am confused. I believe I am not. I know for a fact that whatever my mother did till she was alive was not something wrong. I have witnessed her belief in Oneness of Bhagwaan. I know her saying that we are all coming from one Source and going to Get There sooner or later. She was a believer. I value my past I am proud on my present and Prey for the forgiveness of ALL MIGHTY ALLAH to secure a future for me, my family and my loved once.

I think I could understand, whatever little bit, I have so far is because my mind was open from the childhood and not conditioned to know only one way of Believing. Though I am grateful to God for bringing me at least at this stage of Inner-fight with my own self, I will try not to condition little brains of my kids so that when they are able to know rights & wrongs they can identify, what is “RIGHT” for them. However, for sure I will try to inculcate my understanding of my rights & wrongs. Not sure though how far I am right but it feels right to me.

So! In conclusion my answer as of today is “I AM CONVERTING”
Thanks for bearing my Jihad.

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