SAVVY VIEW

They see my business card and at once I expect their very first question. “R U CONVERTED?” “How come Roopa Sharma Hasan.?” Trust still today I do not have an answer to this question that has been asked for 8 years by my friends, relatives and strangers. Almost 5 years back my answer was NO. BUT, for last 3 years there have been a constant war going on. I don’t know the answer yet. However my first battle in my religious fight is won. I do acknowledge and give “shaadaa” that there is only one God and no one share any place with HIM, living or non-living thing. If believing in One God is a sign of being a Muslim? YES I AM. I have started fasting during Ramadan, not because everyone else around me fast but I want to exercise my will power. I give Zakaat, not because Muslims are supposed to, because I want to. I have been to Umrah by choice to seek more info & knowledge and experience from the divine visuals of HARAM. I am keen to perform Hajj. So far my willingness to perform

I finished my “chalia” means 40 days visit to the temple during morning and evening “Aarti” for Durga Maa. This was suggested by one of our Jyotishi. That was to avoid any hurdle from my relationship with Nadeem. The very 40th day I had a flight from Delhi to Dubai. With this background I came here and entered in a community that was almost Alien to me. Jamia days gave me lil insight into the rituals from a distance. My relationship with Nadeem was never conditionalJ At least from his side. I had loads of conditions though to name few of them are “NO MEAT” in my house or a Kitchen. No CIRCUMCISION for my son. To be very true I did it for the sake of religion for Arman. Though I believe that we are an ultimate creation of Allah and Allah cannot create that is not perfect. I do not regret but I did not believe but I did it one thing in life for the sake of “what people will say if my son is not”4 It was when I lost my brother & my uncle; suddenly I was shattered and wanted some pea

Am I converting – part 3 They say I am confused. I believe I am not. I know for a fact that whatever my mother did till she was alive was not something wrong. I have witnessed her belief in Oneness of Bhagwaan. I know her saying that we are all coming from one Source and going to Get There sooner or later. She was a believer. I value my past I am proud on my present and Prey for the forgiveness of ALL MIGHTY ALLAH to secure a future for me, my family and my loved once. I think I could understand, whatever little bit, I have so far is because my mind was open from the childhood and not conditioned to know only one way of Believing. Though I am grateful to God for bringing me at least at this stage of Inner-fight with my own self, I will try not to condition little brains of my kids so that when they are able to know rights & wrongs they can identify, what is “RIGHT” for them. However, for sure I will try to inculcate my understanding of my rights & wrongs. Not sure though how fa